Must be doing something wrong.

I'm eating bare minimum.

And not losing?

Ok I treated myself last night; to what, apple, raisins and cinnamon? Big woop.

As if that would stop me gaining.

I just don't get it anymore,

I try SO hard.

And get no where.

Well maybe not hard enough.

Not like I exercise tonnes or anything.

I'm a lazy lard arse :(

But (here come the excuses) I have too much art, college is now, and weightloss can happen forever, ya-da ya-da ya. I have no drive to exercise, which is stupid. But I stick to just, keeping busy at all times. Which must do something, right?

I don't know.

It's Day 4 and I'm ... 104.5lbs, maybe even 105lbs.

What the Hell?

My period however, IS late...

I think I fucked that up when I fasted so much last month...

SO, water retention perhaps? Maybe that's why i'm not losing.

I don't know.

I think,

Really think,

I'm going to start fasting tomorrow.

Liquid fast 3 days,

Juice fast 3 days,

Water (with squash - I hate plain water haha) fast 3 days,

Juice fast 3 days,

Liquid fast 3 days,

Back to fruit and vegetables.

Maybe?

Or I'll make it shorter then that,

15days is a long time...

And noticeable to parents....

Bleugh.

Stupid parents.

I want to eat, and be normal.

AND LOSE SHIT LOADS OF WEIGHT.

Fuck this life, I hate it, yet adore it D:

Bleugh, i'm not giving up, no one can make me give up!

I'm going to stick to this, while Mum is still around 24/7, then next week, when every one is back at work/uni, except for me, I will fast.

Then they will only notice me skipping dinner,

But I shall go out a lot instead ;)

And make excuses,

I'm good at that.

This weeks goal of losing 5.5lbs however,

Is going to fail miserably, I can tell.

Urgh.

Stay strong

xox